urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cormadisx10 cormadisx10 cormadisx10 2006-05-31T03:52:39Z urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cormadisx10:1143 2006-05-31T03:52:39Z 2006-05-31T03:52:39Z everything is ok<br />i wish shed not ignor my calls tho<br />i think im just gonna give up<br />try to foget she exists<br />thats basically what shes done<br />sigh<br />i met someone<br />shes cute<br />but its like the worst time <br />ever<br />so<br />idk<br />blah<br />girls<br />grrr urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cormadisx10:800 2006-05-24T19:25:36Z 2006-05-24T19:25:36Z yesterday me and manda broke up<br />i was distraught<br />but then talked to some people <br />and had a feeling that we (me and manda)<br />would be fine<br />idk<br />i woke up crying today<br />annd then<br />took a shower and cried<br />then i went to school<br />and was very colse at times<br />idk<br />i do know i want her back<br />and will do anything for her <br />im a changing person<br />im not neccicerilly doing it for her<br />but for me<br />she deserves a better boyfriend<br />i deserve to be a better person<br /><br /><br />i wnat to be her better tho<br /><br />but if she finds someon else<br />fine<br />as long as shes happy<br />me <br />ill wait<br />for eturnity fro her<br />i waited for her before<br />ill wait agian<br /><br /><br />shes worth it<br /><br />everything<br />the world<br />and more<br /><br /><br />i want her <br />back <br />cuz this hurts<br />it does<br />ive never been like this over a girl<br />i really loved her<br />i did<br />she was the first<br />theres somthing missing tho when shes gone<br />like i will never be the same<br />around anyone<br />shes the one<br />i just no<br />shes got to be<br /><br /><br />i think well be fine<br /><br />i hope urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cormadisx10:638 2006-05-22T17:58:40Z 2006-05-22T17:58:40Z still cant i refuse i couldnt if i tried today <br />i have not stop eating<br />i need to <br />but i cant<br />i didnt straighten my hair today<br />i feel like not caring anymore<br />thats my mood <br />not givvin a shit<br /><br />i wish shed call<br />i wish i could fix this<br />i wish i wasnt born <br />i seem to mess up everything<br />and hurt everyone <br />i care about<br /><br />im gonna giver a few days <br />if she doesnt call<br />then ill call her<br />i just want her back<br /><br />daniel said she was gonna end it anyway<br />i dono what to believe<br />i ii<br />i could live with outher<br />i just wouldnt be worth it<br />shes the most amazing person iv ever met.<br /><br /><br /><br />iiidont no what to do<br /><br />some one talk to me<br />please<br /><br />309 244 9443<br /><br /><br /><br /><br />i need a hug <br />from anyone<br /><br /><br />i wantmy friends to come back<br />they all left me <br /><br /><br />idk what to do<br />wish i did<br />the only thing i can do<br />is change<br />im going to <br />even if she leaves<br />im changing <br />im tired of being stupid<br /><br /><br /><br />im so increadibly stupid<br /><br /><br />i fucked big<br />shes to amazing to loose urn:lj:livejournal.com:atom1:cormadisx10:424 2006-05-21T23:02:58Z 2006-05-21T23:02:58Z none thats how bad i feel me and amanda are well<br />idk<br />i hope we dont break up<br />i love that girl<br />its just <br />im a dick.<br />i need to change<br />i dont want her to put up with my shit<br />any longer<br />iiiii<br />dont no what to do<br />im gonna change for her<br />i dont want her hating me<br />i love her tomuch<br />idk<br />i just want us to be like we were back in the day<br />like new years <br />we were so cute<br />i love her<br />i do <br />i cried<br />hard<br />like 4 million times last night<br />in public<br />i never cry in public<br />maybe <br />3 times in my high/jrhigh life<br />grandfathers funeral<br />bad day at school<br />dashboard concert<br /><br /><br />i dont wanna loose her<br /><br />i wish i could fix this<br /><br />id die for that girl<br /><br /><br />id slowly die twice