Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in cormadisx10's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, May 30th, 2006
10:50 pm	everything is ok i wish shed not ignor my calls tho i think im just gonna give up try to foget she exists thats basically what shes done sigh i met someone shes cute but its like the worst time ever so idk blah girls grrr (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 24th, 2006
2:19 pm	yesterday me and manda broke up i was distraught but then talked to some people and had a feeling that we (me and manda) would be fine idk i woke up crying today annd then took a shower and cried then i went to school and was very colse at times idk i do know i want her back and will do anything for her im a changing person im not neccicerilly doing it for her but for me she deserves a better boyfriend i deserve to be a better person i wnat to be her better tho but if she finds someon else fine as long as shes happy me ill wait for eturnity fro her i waited for her before ill wait agian shes worth it everything the world and more i want her back cuz this hurts it does ive never been like this over a girl i really loved her i did she was the first theres somthing missing tho when shes gone like i will never be the same around anyone shes the one i just no shes got to be i think well be fine i hope (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, May 22nd, 2006
12:50 pm	today i have not stop eating i need to but i cant i didnt straighten my hair today i feel like not caring anymore thats my mood not givvin a shit i wish shed call i wish i could fix this i wish i wasnt born i seem to mess up everything and hurt everyone i care about im gonna giver a few days if she doesnt call then ill call her i just want her back daniel said she was gonna end it anyway i dono what to believe i ii i could live with outher i just wouldnt be worth it shes the most amazing person iv ever met. iiidont no what to do some one talk to me please 309 244 9443 i need a hug from anyone i wantmy friends to come back they all left me idk what to do wish i did the only thing i can do is change im going to even if she leaves im changing im tired of being stupid im so increadibly stupid i fucked big shes to amazing to loose Current Mood: i dontfeel good at all Current Music: still cant i refuse i couldnt if i tried (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, May 21st, 2006
5:56 pm	me and amanda are well idk i hope we dont break up i love that girl its just im a dick. i need to change i dont want her to put up with my shit any longer iiiii dont no what to do im gonna change for her i dont want her hating me i love her tomuch idk i just want us to be like we were back in the day like new years we were so cute i love her i do i cried hard like 4 million times last night in public i never cry in public maybe 3 times in my high/jrhigh life grandfathers funeral bad day at school dashboard concert i dont wanna loose her i wish i could fix this id die for that girl id slowly die twice Current Mood: cried alli can now i just hurt Current Music: none thats how bad i feel (Comment on this)